i always log on
but somehow,
one way or another,
i just dunnoe what to say .
hows life going?
no comments .
.
its not that i give up right before i try .
its just that i dun want to be disappointed .
i dont want to be disappointed by how i perform .
so itsnt it better if i place my hopes lower ?
i do want to make everyone proud but
dont what I want counts ?
"you are smart enuff to go JC"
"Go for JC"
"try for JC"
i know that i wont survive in there .
and even if i can,
i have to fully rely on my hardwork cos
honestly,
i have nth much up there in the brains .
its not in my genes .
and dont you ever dare think
that i can stay focused for a LOOONG period of time .
forget it.
you will have more luck in counting the no of stars in the sky .
believe me .
no matter what i will go all out .

i admit its my fault .
im sorry but does it matter to you?
cos only i am at fault right ?
is dis it ?
why isit always blown out of pieces
when it comes to my faults and flaws ?
isit becos you have none yourself ?
or isit becos people just cant be bothered
cos its the same thing everytime .